Dev Update 1

It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

I’m still working on Breakout, it’s taking a lot longer than I thought to learn the engine (UE4) and to learn exactly what I was coding, instead of just mimicking code.  I’m probably about halfway done with it, so it’s not at all “showable”.

Summer Games Done Quick is on right now, and if you haven’t checked it out on twitch and/or donated, you definitely should since it’s going to a great cause (Doctors without Borders), but watching SGDQ has made me realize exactly what my dream as a developer is:

I want to see my games get broken.

I know it sounds weird, but I’m watching these excellent runners on the couch, and they are just exposing every glitch they can.

And they’re loving it.  They still love the game.

Even though beloved games are being broken to hell, the runners and the audience still love them and enjoy them and watch them every year.

So my dream has now been a little bit more refined: I want to make games that make people happy, even when they’re broken.  I want someone to play my game and say “Even with all its faults, this is still a really great game, and a story that means a lot to me”, because, let’s face it, no game is going to be perfectly made; it will always have bugs.

I just want to make games that will be enjoyed by everyone, even though they won’t be perfect.  This doesn’t mean I’ll make glitch-ridden games.  I will always put my life into the stories I make and help others make, but it would be so great to see a game I worked on being run on the couch in SGDQ, and to know that at least one person loved my game so much to study it and find ways to break it, and still really love the game.

So yeah, that’s my dream.

Thanks GDQ, take my donation.



What’s the Point?

wpid-4489549-26408072-thumbnailWhat’s the point of making this blog?  Well, probably so that I can update my progress on the games that I’m making, or someplace to jot down my thoughts on recent developments in the vidya industry.

But it’s also to make sure I get things done.

You see, sometimes (just like everyone else), I lack the self-motivation to do things.  I’ve tried to make promises to myself, but I always get stuck in my head, get frustrated (see picture above), and then want to play games more than I want to make them.

However, if I post on the great interwebs that I want to do the thing and WILL do the thing, I know that there’s a possibility that someone, somewhere will see it, and maybe perhaps look forward to me doing the thing.  Then I feel more motivated to do the thing, because now I’m not just doing it for me, I’m doing it for me and the one other person who wants me to.  I also know that if I don’t  do the thing, that one person may call me out on it, and I definitely don’t want that.

I may lack self-motivation, but I certainly don’t want anyone to know.

So here I am.